When Dreams Die!

It was a very old road ..There were many giant potholes in it.. Like the huge craters you find on the Mars planet... Murky water had got deposited in it feeding and nurturing some microscopic organisms which you cannot see..
It was going through wear-tear process and was raped by the heavy trucks that used to move on it... They used to clash with these potholes resulting into splashes of water.. The tires of these trucks once again used to look new and black after such a quickie wash.!. The worse thing used to be if there was no water on this road because when it was dry the dust caused by the HMV (heavy motor vehicles) used to spread allover the area... On the lake ,on the land and in the air.. attacking the three basic elements of this universe !... Like a thick blanket of smoke..The shops everywhere used to get engulfed in this dust and if a walking pedestrian like me encountered such a kind of "dust hurricane" then what else can you do just swear and curse this road..And what will this dust do to you ? It will make you a survivor who has just survived from a crumbling mound of sand!
This road was reconstructed recently.... It is now smooth dark black in colour and even HMV's don't move on it ....You feel good when you walk on it but walking can give you pleasure when it is just an option like an evening or morning walk... But it becomes a sore in your feet when it is a compulsion for you because you don't have anyother choice..You walk when it is raining , or when it is a hot summer afternoon.... You are slow because the whole world is moving very fast around you ..Cheating the time...You can just only observe ..With a blink of an eye you see a different view because the older view has reached somewhere else you don't know where !.. With the blink of an eye the NASA rocket has reached somewhere deep in the space breaking the barriers of time , speed and atmosphere, right now exploring the mysteries of this universe....Some other supersonic jet with Mach speed has attacked and destroyed the enemy bunker and now it has come back also....
You haven't finished your work because you are slow ... And some one says to you that your time is up.. It sounds as if you are still doing the first question in an examination and your time is up....When the whole world is sleeping you are cooling off your heels and your knee caps because the bones in the legs are making that screeching sound like an opening of rusty metal doors..... Because some fluid inside it has gone dry! Because you have broken the Walking limits! Law of nature: " excess of everything is Bad'
You are a helpless pedestrian who just has to walk because he doesn't have any Alladin's Carpet to take him to his destination..It is a good luck for this pedestrian when he sees his bluebus which can take him half the distance of his destination and then he again has to wait for some more good luck until one more bluebus will arrive and will thus complete his pilgrimage.. But then again he will have to walk some distance .... But this is not that easy ..It is a Tom and Jerry game because you have to chase the bus to catch it before others board it .....This time Tom is small and Jerry is big... Or you just have to hang on the foot of the door or just simply sacrifice your ride..You have to apply all your laws of physics to make an estimation where exactly the bus will stop and if your physics fails because there is difference between theory and reality... Then you are swept away by the rush of the people ,pedestrians.....
Now you board the bluebus ..You are pushed into darkness because you cannot see anything .. You don't know where to set your feet.. at last you find a tiny space where you can just place the toe of your feet. And the other leg is in the air in free space searching where to land.. It is a back breaking phenomenon for you when you have to bend your back and take the whole load of the crowd around you.... Suddenly you become Atlas who had to bear the weight of this world.... Your neck is paining ... Your mouth is dry..You are are suffocating because the people around you are crushing you as if you were some kind of mosquito or a tomato.... But they themselves come under this compulsive togetherness.. A chain of pushing and crushing..... you reach to a stop where you again have to catch the next BB to complete your pilgrimage..You get down....
It is light again ..You can see again.. Your clothes look like that of a Matador who was mercilessly dragged on the ground .... This is the condition of your clothes in the front and you don't know about your backside because you don't have an extra eye or eyes on the back.....Grooming , pressing clothes, all gone waste.!. You even don't reach on time..Because you are just a pedestrian a walking pedestrian..Who easily gets tired and hungry because he already was tired... Dog tired... He just falls downs in his room and doesn't know what happened next ..maybe he was driving a Bugatti car or doing a moon walk or just walking in his dreams!
…one small step for [a] man, one giant leap for mankind. (HaHA)

I am sinner, I am saint. I am beloved and the Betrayed. I have no joys that are not yours , no Aches which are not yours .I too call myself I
----kamla Das

'Hartala in Karnataka'!

October 4 wednesday:It is bandh today ...Big shops, small shops, medium shops...Everything is closed! There is this huge gibberish noise in the playground.....Usually this kind of noise is reserved for Sunday's when kids as well as adults go out and play! ..The streets are empty......Vehicles are flooded everywhere..Few cows are moving slowly and moving their head gently as they closely pass these parked vehicles...Some dogs are smelling out the tires of a car...Why am I finding so many dogs on the street today?....Sad dogs, weak dogs, happy dogs ,barking dogs, sleeping dogs..Maybe I am used of seeing so much of traffic and people that I mainly neglect the presence of these canines!.....Some kids are chasing an old beggar woman and making hullabaloo...These lunatics are running and moving dangerously with their cycles as if they are the kings of the road today.......Rascals!..they should be in school today instead of throwing things at this poor old woman....Reaching to the cross road a man is sitting under the sign post talking on the phone"the bus has not come....I am waiting..It will take long..I don't know what to do?"...In the mean time I remember my hunger pangs also..Thinking where will I get my samosa,fruits,vegetables and milk.?...Do I have to remain hungry today?....... Walking few steps I find a huge crowd(as compared to the empty streets) gathered around bhelpuri-walla, banana walla,peanut walla and off course coconut walla..When all means get closed people go back to the basics, back to nature, back to the jungle where once we used to feed on fruits and other things.....It was also a genuine demand by the auto rickshaw man when he charged excess amount to a couple , without saying a word Romeo and Juliet simply boarded his tuc-tuc and sped off....Luckily I find a shop whose shutter is half open.. I had to kneel down as if i had to go through an underground tunnel...I bought whatever was available (chucking out my gastronomic desires.).This time half liter ordinary milk cost me rupees10 instead of the normal price of rupees seven!.Not wanting to be in the company of street dogs and cows..I went back to my place..It really was a boring and hungry hartal! -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- October 5 : Enjoyed a peaceful, soothing, " round table evening tea party" at the kiosk with simple kiosk tea and chips ,while sitting on the steel round chair and our humble meal on the round table.... under the green trees.. besides the white electric bulbs,spreading that white aura of angelic-light in the darkness!